Part 1 of Essay
Despite years of traditional religious education, I find myself learning the delicate art of self interest. The empowering knowledge that I am indeed the captian of my own ship leaves me with feelings of control and peace and undoubtedly a measure of guilt. While I do most certainly believe in a higher power, i cannot sub ....

Part 2 of Essay
.... practicing it. Strangers I have met at work ahve invited me to join them in their worship. I get pamphlets on my car, and messages on my answering machine. It seems taht everyone is trying to "save" me. From myself? From eternal damnations? I have a lingering suspicion that I am supposed to bleive in "something", so I try to reach deep within me for some spiritual faith. The futile attempt for absolute truth leaves me feeling frustrated. What the search has left me with is faith in myself, faith to make ....