Part 1 of Essay
Fear is a force that lurks within us. It can control our lives, and our thoughts, our emotions and our desires. It can keep us awake till the night dissipates, or till the sun falls beneath the trees. How can it hold so much power and strive above us, and how is such an emotion so easily toyed with? We cannot yet under ....

Part 2 of Essay
.... "what could I have done better?". These questions haunt me till I enter sleep, a time where I let me fears aside and take part in a fantasy only to be interrupted 5 hours later. Unlike some, my dreams are my solitude, I take great pleasure in sleep, a time to relish on the life I may never have, the women I may never have, and the beauty I may never see. Thank you for these dreams. It is slowly killing me. I feel my soul and life falling and receding like my hair, or so I imagine. Another fear of mine, ....